At this point, nothing knocks the wind out of my sails or makes the tears start flowing faster than hearing the furniture company telling me it's going to be YET ANOTHER 2 weeks until my baby's furniture comes in!!! I want nothing more than to be able to put my son's nursery together, so that I can relax knowing that we are ready for him to come. Unfortunately, that's just not possible. My furniture isn't coming in until I am around 35 weeks pregnant, and there's absolutely nothing I can do about it but wait...as I have been waiting...since the beginning of March.
I'm starting to get very uncomfortable, and the aches and pains of third trimester pregnancy are increasing every day - not to mention the emotions.
Today as I was {yet again} crying about the fact that I had just been told the end of the waiting is not as close as I thought it would be, I was reminded that the topic of waiting is often addressed in the Bible. There are so many times we are told, as Christians, to wait....patiently. That's hard to do, y'all!!!! Waiting is one thing....waiting patiently is a whole different ball game. I have all these different emotions swirling around in me, and I have to say that patience is not one of them right now...not even close.
Not knowing what to do, and feeling like I was about to go crazy...I found this verse...
"Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer" Romans 12:12
There's nothing - absolutely nothing - inside of me that is able to do this. I'm really only good at crying and complaining at this point, but with God's help over the next few weeks, I'm going to try very hard to:
1. Be joyful that I have a healthy beautiful baby boy growing inside of me.
2. Patiently wait for the furniture that I know is ordered and slowly but surely on its way.
3. Pray for my lil' man and for our family as we start this new phase of life (Goal: Pray every time my mind tries to wander into crying/complaining mode).
2 comments:
Oh Carrie, I feel your pain! I know how much you want everything ready and perfect. The good thing is even if you don't have a nursery at all, you get to bring home the most precious baby in a few weeks. He'll teach you very fast that so much stuff is more for us mommas than our sweet babies. I'm sure you've already thought of all this, but could you make stacks for each drawer etc. and label the stacks. Then someone else could get it all ready for you if needed.
You should talk to Beka about "gracious uncertainty". God has all of this stuff worked out, we just have to do as you said and connect with his plan. Part of my connecting is to again tell you that I will come help you get everything ready if it really comes down to the wire:) Love you!!!
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