If You Can't Say Something Nice...Resolve Not To

You know the old saying - "If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all." Well, I'm taking it on as my New Years online resolution. You see, I've gotten into the bad habit of airing my emotions over the phone or online - to the world - rather than taking them to God. For some reason, I feel like if I air my frustrated and (for lack of a better word) icky feelings about my day/kids/self/health/situation on my blog or facebook then I should feel better - especially if lots of people encourage me through comments - right?!?! Wrong. I'm here to tell you that it does not make you feel better to make your facebook status relate to the world that you are having a bad day or to call your mom/husband and cry that they are not there to help. So here it is: my New Years resolution is to take all of my icky feelings to the Lord first - he sees - he cares - he wants to hear - and he's in control, so he can help. Does that mean you won't ever hear of any difficulties in my life again? Probably not. I like transparency. My goal is to stop crying out to the world while I am in the middle of something rather than crying out to my God. The key is for me to go to him first!

So this morning when my 8 month old who is of course on a fantastic schedule as every 8 month old should be  totally and completely unpredictable in the mornings screamed bloody murder for 2.5 hours despite everything that I could possibly think of...I had LOTS of icky feelings....LOTS. So I put him in his crib (after checking him thoroughly), got in the shower, and WEPT before the Lord. WEPT. When was the last time you wept before the Lord? It feels pretty good. I must confess that I would normally call my mom or husband weeping or get on facebook and rashly type out something to make people feel sorry for me. It may seem like that is what I'm currently doing, but I'm not. The situation is over, and I'm here to tell you that after I had fallen on my face before my God, I had an overwhelming sense of peace. Praise his Name! I love my God, and I love that he cares enough to fill me with peace during a time that I had none. Thank you Lord, I'll be back soon :) Do you have icky feelings you need to take to God? As my mom always tells me: "He can handle it."

"Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall."  Psalm 55:22 "Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."  Matthew 11:28-30